Depression

I’ve got depression, and it’s with me forever So never, ever, ever can I escape into happiness There’s just so much stress, so much doubt So much anger that I cannot control my mouth I had it all my life, and it continues to persist As much as I try to get past this It’s always stuck to me like a shadow All the feelings it entows, and yes I know The feeling all too well, self-doubt, lack of interest Somedays I sleep all day in my bed Just hoping I can wake up one day without depression But I always learn my lesson because it’s always there And I’m scared because it keeps controlling my life This ain’t right, I wish I could see the light But it’s dim, not bright so I guess I’ll never see Because I’m so unstable, what is wrong with me? Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Makes me feel like I’m not great Makes me feel like I’m a disgrace Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Fuels my anger and my hate Makes me wonder what it’s going to take To beat this I think that entertainment is a waste of time When it doesn’t release endorphins in my mind That helps fight the depression that’s deep inside Why do I have to hide? I want to show who I am But alas, I drive all the people away With my depression, what do I have to say? When the feelings just linger in your head And those feelings make you wish you were dead You’re isolated, but not by choice They can tell who you are by the sound of your voice Always angry, sad, mad, whatever they call it A cure for depression would be my only wish So I can take it, have all my problems go poof But alas it’s a dream, so what can I do? To even manage, because right now it’s hard Always being down because of who you are Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Makes me feel like I’m not great Makes me feel like I’m a disgrace Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Fuels my anger and my hate Makes me wonder what it’s going to take To beat this It’s like the devil's inside me and I spend time with it Everyday, and I shrug because it always exists I don’t like doing this as much as the next man I can’t even overcome, I feel like I’m trapped in Iceland Always stuck there for the rest of my days Watching while they take everything away Even though I had nothing in the first place It’s hard being a disgrace while I’m holding back tears My career is my hobby that keeps me going But I feel like my depression is holding me back Never allowing me to fully get a grasp On my skill, I feel like I’m gasping for air I’m dead inside, feel like a zombie Walking nowhere with no emotion inside me Depression’s burning me out, like there’s nowhere to go And I feel like I’ve lost all control, and I’m gone. Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Makes me feel like I’m not great Makes me feel like I’m a disgrace Depression, depression, it’s inside me Always hiding in plain sight, I can’t escape Fuels my anger and my hate Makes me wonder what it’s going to take To beat this