Death Grip

When I'm alone I break I grit my teeth and shake It's more than I can take The pain I'm forced to face Free me from this fucking place I can't take the way I'm feeling today I got a lot I could say But no one ever listens anyway Since I remember I was sick and afraid Depressed, on edge, and ashamed Out on a ledge and nothing ever changed Every seconds like I'm walking on glass Its an impossible task I wear a mask so no one ever asks How I'm feeling, if I'm doing okay Nobody's hearing my claims They close their eyes or look the other way Separate from the pain that I perpetuate Concentrate on everything I loved but learned to hate Its more than I can take, reality's too much to face When I'm alone I break, Free me from this fucking place Misery controls me Why won't you console me No ones here to hold me Life has left me lonely I'm nothing more than just a ghost of the past A string of memories collected scattered out like the ashes Of every person that I've loved and lost too young or too fast So every night I kneel and pray just to ask Let me forget about everything I'd give anything To feel nothing at all I fell victim to the self seeking People I perceived as well meaning I don't know where it all went wrong It's gone on far too long I can't shake the way I'm feeling today I got a lot I could say But no one ever listens anyway Since I remember I was sick and afraid Depressed, on edge, and ashamed Out on a ledge and nothing ever changed So I just want to forget But can't forgive shit Ball me up and fucking throw me away Cos no one stays Nothing's changed Guess it doesn't matter anyway If it did I wouldn't be in this place With these suicidal thoughts and a mask on my face All I know is despite my persistence From my perspective every angle of this pictures warped and twisted I fought so hard to survive, I'm alive, but just existing while I wait to die It's time to say goodbye So fucking say goodbye to me