Back to Me

And to the pain I felt Grab that Gucci belt and beat myself Expense it all just tryna be top shelf Then rather be myself I hope that niggas understand all the options Came from pain that I experienced in my body Ain't had the heart to stop it I kept quiet while niggas was steady talking Feet hurting from the miles I been walking 5 step drop up out that pocket Niggas really had no other option Focus only on the shit you spitting Tune in to yourself until you start to lose your hearing 20/20 everybody ain't gon have the vision Harden step back niggas had to create some distance And It hurt me Giving love to ones that ain't deserve me The ones that would rather just desert me than dessert me And I did myself worsely And I did myself worse But I gotta get back Gotta get back Gotta get back to me to me to me to me But I gotta get back Gotta get back Gotta get back to me to me to me to me Yeah, uh Look in the mirror and don't see familiar pictures Don't smile often when the last I seen the dentist Call the weed man said I need to replenish The same old shit got me starting to feel vintage Lost in my thoughts A lot of self hate Self esteem low since a child's plate Wouldn't you rather see a smile on a child's face Ain't no welcome mat living in a child's place Uh And I wonder if they knew me If this was really how they do me Couldn't reach top they ain't boost me Stuck in a circle hoolah hoop me But it hurt me Feeling like I ain't one deserve things Pushing people away for they could desert me And I did myself worsely And I did myself worsely But I gotta get back Gotta get back Gotta get back to me to me to me to me But I'm finally getting back I'm finally getting back I'm finally getting back to me to me to me to me I go to church now Funny how it works out Got my bread up Shit a nigga talking Derst now I keep my head up Nigga looking from a bird house Things got better I don't see how they get worse now And I'm holding holding holding holding holding holding on I finally found me so I'm holding holding holding holding holding holding on I can't let me go I'm holding holding holding holding holding on I finally found me so I'm holding holding holding holding holding on I can't let me go And it hurts me Knowing damn well that I deserve things To the people that desert me No they ain't really deserve me They ain't really deserve me Ain't deserve me They ain't deserve me no no But I gotta get back Gotta get back to me To me Uh no