Am I Really OK?

Liven this life it's love I'm chasing She says she likes you then you start dating Loves too toxic then it starts fading Going in circles mind is racing You know the pain when everything's aching Mind and soul body keeps shaking Just be happy How can I do that when my heart is breaking Stuck in a prison that is my mind Deep in a place that no one can find Is it dark down here or am I just blind Good and evil are always defined Tryna find a way out but I don't know the layout Searching for a route but I never see a day out New thoughts arrive I will fight to be alive Every day I strive so good can survive Days of torture the devil perfected Punished for every time I was tempted Thoughts in my mind are always so demented Never ever thought that I would be resented All I know is shame, he's the one to blame Never could tame all the evil to my name Evil thoughts locked up Break out mess up That just my luck Guess I'll just shut up He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route Shorty tryna get my Time She don't know how to lie or Rhyme Actin like I made her Mine Then telling me I crossed the Line One day she be by my Side Music loud we going for a Ride Apparently she got a Guy I guess he ain't super Fly That ain't ever happen, I wrote it on a napkin Guess I'm just rapping, cause life is lacking I never sleep, that's why I made this beat I guess that's pretty neat, now I'm cooking up heat What I am is real, I know how I feel I made the devil kneel, now let's make a deal I'm taking your crown, and I'm the king now I'm on my way down, and I'm running hellbound He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route It's times like these I wish I was free Free from the chains I have in my mind Mind my own business and I would be fine Find a new path or maybe rewind Rewind before I made myself blind Blind to a reason or even a sign Signed my name and lost track of the time Time has passed so leave it all behind So many thoughts I can't control Voices have found their way out of the hole Now they just run around raging and rampant Whispering words I'm unable to dampen Pain I thought I already overcame Has only comeback filling me with shame Who I thought I was was not who I became No turning back it'll never be the same He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route He say she say gonna be a good day I say we say am I really okay He say she say gotta let it all out I say we say am I on the right route