You're Not Alone.

When it began it was adventurous I never meant to push the outer limits of emptiness Excursions, turned to impulsive urges, to be where the birds is Thirsty and nervous, but still not afraid To take grams to the face in the back half of the day Til the sun would come running right back out to play It was me against the voices Peeping out the curtains, geeking Not in the mood to be amused by any person The dark hours, alcohol and cigarettes Lost on a long, hard road of introspect Strange contemplations, stress, how much is left? These heart murmurs got me questioning my intellect The quest for the original stimulation I used to get Physical unrest is a residual side effect Sometimes I go so distant, I disconnect I didn't think I was addicted, I was different Didn't want to smoke or inject it, I was sniffing it Had a love and hate relationship with a stimulant Something about the way she made me paranoid was interesting Plus she's always whispering "Daddy can we take another sniff again?" Fidgeting, feeling like somebody's always coming And when you going hard it causes erectile dysfunction Caught up in the chase and maybe running from your demons If you're falling downhill you probably need to stop skiing Money makes the world go round for some people Just not me though, I got my own road to travel And I've come too far to turn around now Some things you gotta just let go, before they take over your soul I know, sometimes it just feels so impossible You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now I remember snotty noses, small talk and large boulders Sinus infections as a result of long binges Bad decisions, mad shady business dealings Secret stashes hidden in the drop ceilings Late night, playing a slave to desperation Wasted, suffering from sleep deprivation Lacing, every blunt but never called it freebasing Chasing escapism is the lonely destination Pacing back and forth, I'm checking all the door locks Lack of inhibitions, I'm confessing all my sore spots Think my heart could stop, why am I chopping up more rocks?! Should I save the rest? Yes, but did I? Of course not There's overdose potential and cardiac arrest considerations But they were never stronger than my cravings The ride is borderline exhilarating When you're gasping for air, every breath is precious respiration I never met a girl that tried and didn't like it I never liked the pipe, the high was kind of frightening Life is valuable, some might even say it's priceless So why did I decide to provide for my vices? I'm surprised, that I survived through the crisis I tried to describe but there's just nothing like it My advice is be very careful with your vice grips Cuz I've seen many men infected by the white virus Money makes the world go round for some people Just not me though, I got my own road to travel And I've come too far to turn around now Some things you gotta just let go, before they take over your soul I know, sometimes it just feels so impossible You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no You need to know you're not alone now, no