Change My Ways

I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways Too many long nights, and wasted days I swear I'll change now, I swear I'll This time I'll change my ways Ya, I've always been the type, to look back, on my life And wonder, have I done it alright, or have I, Just made excuses for nights, that I can't remember With people that I can't forget, those times stay in my head I thought I done my best, and always been a bigger man Never an accomplice to the drama, now here I stand Ready to give departing words to all this extra bullshit I would go more rounds, but I'm expended, ain't got a full clip And this place it feel foreign, don't think I been here A place in my mind where my mistakes seem so clear Trying to be sincere and take blame for my actions Understand what I do will have an opposite reaction Feeling like a fraction of the man I want to be Think I was closer to that man when I was only seventeen A weak grip on my life losing sight of my dreams Can't blame my ex for what she did, cuz I drove her to cheat Ya, and I drove in the seat Above the limit, push a stick shift, ask who rollin' with me I give no fucks in the moment cuz that's what I think is cool Behind the wheel, fuck how I feel, why am I acting a fool Such a fool, such a fool Living inside swimming pools And push the limit every weekend pay no attention to rules I think its time to face it, and understand I got a problem See my reflection and apologize to him for what I cost him I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways Ya, and that conversation's tough Recognizing a problem at twenty-two is hard enough When everyone around me do the same it ain't seem fair Cuz they all good so why am I not, I guess we hard to compare I guess we hard to compare, and this is hard for me to share Heart on my sleeve, like I put it on fabric to wear Designer shirt, you can find me at the bar staying late My friends went home, I'm all alone Cuz I decided to stay, I'm all alone And always offer to pay I check my bank in the morning, my accounts losing weight And Ive known for a while I'm not the best with my money I'd rather blow it on drinks at the bar tryna get lucky Oh ya Them times were funny but I'd rather give it up I've tried time and time again but I ain't have no luck I guess I'd rather stay fucked, expression of a coward Don't understand why I'm giving substances the power A flower in a room won't bloom and that's the truth So I try to leave the bar and turn the lights on in the booth The hardest on myself, but I guess it's a part of me Cuz saying no to another one is just so hard for me I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways I gotta change my ways, I gotta change my ways