One Life (I'm Afraid)

I feel my mind dwindling with time, the tears dried but yet I'm still held a victim of the crime Yesterday and tomorrow are in my minds eye, while today slips away and my fate unwinds I reached an age where life begins to take, friends flip, family dies, lovers leave, your soul breaks Fantasies are dissolved and faith fades, If you seen the way I stumbled you would learn what grace takes But when I wake up in the morning, I feel my body ache Living with the pain of mourning my mistakes And the times are changing faster than I care to face Sometimes I wish I could just pump the brakes But the clocks keep turning with sun on me My anger stems from what they should have done for me Spent my time doing what others want from me But never really asked what did I want from me Did I live a life of love, (I'm afraid) Did I go far enough (I'm afraid) I wonder when I lose your touch (I'm afraid) Was I worthy of your trust (I'm afraid) Don't you know that I got one life, one life Make sure I live it right, live it right Don't you know that I got one life, one life May not always get it right, get it right Now I know that I got one life, one life Did I live a life of love, (I'm afraid) That's why it's worth a try, worth a try Did I go far enough (I'm afraid) Now I know that I got one life, one life I wonder when I lose your touch (I'm afraid) That's why I'm feeling high, feeling high Was I worthy of your trust (I'm afraid) I need to swallow capsules to make my mind still Or negative energy will make the prophecy fufill I have no idea if there's a second act Can't take a fantastical founder as fact Sometimes my mind wonders if you're really done yet Life lived with regret, goals not accomplished, don't take the exit It'd be okay if I was secure, but life is pain, and is fatality the only cure Regardless of thoughts that race, the heart does the same I don't want life to end, and leave my name with shame I'm afraid of no one reminiscing my tale And if they do thinking I hid behind a veil Sometimes you give into hypocrisy & sin Charity is nothing you can measure & win I hope when I return to nothing It's apparent I was good, and wasn't bluffin Three times I almost gave my soul to spent But each time I tried my best to prevent If there's a father he might not want his son back yet But when the time comes it'll make me sweat The thought of being nothing makes me insane Is reality just stuck inside my brain Will I live on when my flesh has rotten Or do we all end up a pile of ash and forgotten Did I live a life of love, (I'm afraid) Did I go far enough (I'm afraid) I wonder when I lose your touch (I'm afraid) Was I worthy of your trust (I'm afraid) Don't you know that I got one life, one life Make sure I live it right, live it right Don't you know that I got one life, one life May not always get it right, get it right Now I know that I got one life, one life Did I live a life of love, (I'm afraid) That's why it's worth a try, worth a try Did I go far enough (I'm afraid) Now I know that I got one life, one life I wonder when I lose your touch (I'm afraid) That's why I'm feeling high, feeling high Was I worthy of your trust (I'm afraid)