I Just Died / Freestyle

I'm so tired, I think I just died I think I need faith I think I need God I'm so tired, I think I just died I think I need faith I think I need God I'm so tired gotta, catch up on sleep Gotta catch up on the things that be making me, me I've been out of breathe screaming nearly ten times a week Thinking about the time I'll just be dangling feet (Fuck) Are you dead if you're not living your life Are you dead if you're not living it right I've been spending mine just trying to fight For a part of me that wants to be living one night It's a burning pain, and a fucked up game I spent too much time thinking up my name Thinking of a lane I gotta keep it in Fuck up my brain and take shots for sins I hope I'm numb when i'm dead When I rest in the bed Right when I just got head But it still makes me feel like i'm less than the bread And less of a man For planning to lose in this race that I ran And it's been too many fucking years I've been trapped up in the corner just trying to make it here I got no one else to say that they'll always be near So losing you just might be my biggest fear I know its my time soon 'Cause I haven't felt like I've been living since noon I feel dead and lonely trapped inside this room I can't believe that i'm getting hurt by you I'm so tired, I think I just died I think I need faith I think I need God I'm so tired, I think I just died I think I need faith I think I need God Let's put the focus on you Talk about all the shit that you use to do Talking fuck with my friend, and fuck with my heart From the beginning, we were doomed from the start You would never show love, you would never show us The closest I feel to you is when we fuck And I know that ain't right, and I know we need help So on God baby you can't fix this yourself You say it's my fault that you're sad and lonely You blame my depression You're fake bitch you're phony You can't put that on me You promised you'd be here, you promised you'd be here You became my fear bitch You say you don't wanna fuck but you put it right on me You say you're not good enough but you never try to be So i'm sick of this shit, you're unloyal you bitch You hurt me more now than if we were to Never have cuffed and never have kissed You caring about me's that shit that I miss Shit now I can't breathe, and now I can't see What I want for us, for us to be I'm coming full circle, I'm sorry as fuck I don't mean this shit, I do but i'm stuck I simply feel stuck, I simply feel stuck I'd miss you too much I won't just give up I love you? Love ain't a cure it's just a feeling But i'll be God damned to say it hasn't helped healing I need to find myself, find happiness So i can appreciate it Love is a feeling, and I'll feel forever I'm breathing for you, and I'll breathe forever You find the happiness in the rainiest weather Twenty years and I see us together Whatever