Until Now (Demo)

Until now... I've been lost searching for answers Sleepless with eyes wide open I never knew peace until I found myself here again Until now... I've been drifting away on icy seas Never found hope on these lonely streets Mistakes I made as I kept falling apart Words I've said I meant from the heart It was all gone until now... There's a light blinding me in my sleep Restless nights in hotel rooms crying Left on a train to Brattleboro Never knew the meaning of home I was too far gone until now... Supposed to be left for dead Lost in bottles of beer and pills All the winters spent alone inside my head No silence from my Post Traumatic Devils Thought I was forever lost until now... I finally unzipped out of this shell I escaped this transphobic hell Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh So comfortable in my transgender skin I wasn't okay until I became a woman