Gospel

Its been a rough bringing But I went through what I had to so I could become the man I am Family trauma mixed in heartbreak, drug aroma How bout that one time that I tried inducing on a coma Its like a lesson learned Every time I'm going through the hardships of my lives I end up feeling cold as ice Deep inside its like the soul just put out all the light Took my last breath pleading but its all in spite No matter how I try to live I'm always frowned upon I try to do the right thing but its always wrong But still I'm holding on Trynna find my way I keep on moving through the storm But now Im losing hope Feeling all alone Wishing for support But now its getting harder since I lost my sense of trust Now I'm feeling lost No longer holding on Waiting for the end to come so I see it all Gone I Gave in to the negativity Crazy how I let it get the best of me Guess you can call it anxiety All just depriving me Of how happy I could of been Or that's the way it seems I think I kinda like the negativity I have Let me explain a little further so you can comprehend It kinda gives me a reason to be relevant to my friends again And get them to cherish me with events I'm dealing with And it fucks me up cause I don't wanna be like that I wanna be in control of all the thoughts that I have But I Keep making all these excuses All just holding me back from the progress I coulda made Thinking that its fate But now I see the logic on the other side Realizing that the problem was my sudden pride Now I'm Working on the ego Moving forward I go Heading to the road of positivity No matter how I try to live I'm always frowned upon Trying to learn the right thing but I'm kinda wrong But still I'm holding on Slowly find my way I keep on moving through the storm Slowly gaining hope Feeling kinda grown Supporting on my own But now its getting harder since I lost the sense of I Now I'm feeling lost No longer holding on Waiting for the end to come so I see it gone Man Fuck that negativity Positivity in my bones Family friends and a girl at home Got it all locked down Able to help my mamma Able to help the fam I never had this type of income Now it all just flowing in Want to help the homeless Want to help charity Start a new foundation The Wish I Could foundation Know Ill make a difference Know Ill help the fight Time to get to work We starting off tonight Its been a rough bringing But I went through what I had to so I could become the man I am Family trauma mixed in heartbreak, negativity How bout that one time I blamed it on anxiety Its like a lesson learned Every time I'm going through the hardships of my life I end up feeling bold and hype Deep inside its like the soul ignited all the light Took a deep breath fighting cause I know its right No matter how I try to live I'm always happy now Finally learned the right thing no longer ever wrong Now I'm holding on Finally found my way I keep on moving through the storm Always high on hope Feeling fully grown Supporting on my own No longer hard since I have found myself No longer feeling lost Now holding on Waiting for the end to come so I can finally soar