Never Ready

A blessing is a blessing until it's a lesson Stressing about how I'm gonna fix up this mess And I met a devil and an angel at the same time Recalibrated all of my insides Checked them all one by one right down to the heart Never knew that this shit could ever fall apart Never rejected I just had a message expressing I wanted to restart But you took it the wrong way It was a matter of time Before I hated myself and I had to end it Then was the line, that you crossed But across is attention, I have to mention it I'm just so desperate at this point, I had me at gunpoint Keeping myself here it's a mess Degrading torture that I have getting this shit off my chest The only thing that I can say now is that I'm sorry Leaving you is more painful than the many scars I find on me The only thing that I can say now is that I'm sorry Leaving you is more painful than the many scars I find on me I guess being petty Shows that you were never ready If I could see it then I wouldn't have taken the opportunity You're fucking bipolar I swear to god I can't take it You say it ain't your fault, then why the hell are you faking I can't believe that our relationship has come to this point What you're doing has been ripping me apart from my joints It's fucking pathetic I swear to god That I just wanna end it and it tears at my heart People are thinking that I'm gonna fuck up By keeping you inside but Damn it I don't think you know how to part It's fucking pathetic I swear to god That I just wanna end it and it tears at my heart People are thinking that I'm gonna fuck up By keeping you inside but Damn it I don't think you know how to part You say that you are over me, but you hit my line Daily it's insanely stressful, give me plenty of time This is all equally hard on me as it is on you But I'd say I'm suffering more because of what I've been through Everything that's going on in my head is not even from you You contributed but actions that I made costed too Much pain for me, if only you knew Everything building up is ending my life too soon But you don't give a fuck you just want me to suffer Cause I had to lie and say I wasn't talking to her Or them or him I had no freedom Now I'm gone it wasn't easy, yeah it had to end But shit, once I thought that it was finally over You posted pictures to cover up that you were never sober Now you're trying to make me jealous, I'm the one who left you I guess a chance with me, wasn't the only thing that you blew Damn I guess being petty Shows that you were never ready If I could see it then I wouldn't have taken the opportunity I guess being petty Shows that you were never ready If I could see it then I wouldn't have taken the opportunity I guess being petty Shows that you were never ready If I could see it then I wouldn't have taken the opportunity