Shattered

Face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered If I got nothing to fear Then it don't matter Does it matter No one's more alone than me in my head I need to speak to friend I need a friend Maybe I can play pretend And act like the holes in the walls Make up a fence Make up a sentence Speak it to myself with some intention Maybe a message Tell myself that I can do some shit that's real tremendous Real inventive So attentive Pay attention Like I pay for lessons Pay for sessions Cure my obsession Of whatever death is I'm so dependent On you Tellin me that I'm splendid Feelin like I'm relentless But only for just a second I'm slippin and feelin like endin it But then I read these messages They're telling me that I'm heaven sent To keep going where my head is at Stop losin my mind Stop losing my mind Stop losing my mind Find peace in due time I still can't hold back that I wanna cry That I wanna die But still I fight Yeah I'll fight till my last night My last breath Through every bad time Cuz as yet I've found nothing of substance So I won't stop till I do I won't stop til prove That I got something to do Maybe it's in front you Your skins thin Who cares if they make fun of you Apparently I care And you don't I'm losing clarity Of what's real And what's jokes You want smoke I'll leave you chokin Like there's something on your throat Is that real Or am I just lashing out in revolt Face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered If I got nothing to fear Then it don't matter Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered If I got nothing to fear Then it don't matter Does it matter Existential questions Are like lethal weapons To my presence If I'm feelin hurt You kick the dirt It'll cover the surface But it's deeper than words So much deeper then what you think that you heard The reaper speaks to me He reaches for me in his hearse I don't believe in this earth So when you speak to me like I should be leaving this earth It makes these deeper feelings unearth So be cautious when you speak So that context doesn't matter But you should be watching when you speak Some are sensitive And they shatter when you speak So when the toxins seem to leak It's like you're talkin to me Toxicity talking me into deceased activity Be conscious of the weak Who are stronger then you think We're on edge and you keep prodding Us to the brink So many problems you can't see So context doesn't matter When you constantly feel defeat I'm on the edge of my seat So please Stop pushing me Before I break the glass And use the shards at my feet Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror I'm feelin shattered Look my face in the mirror