Smoke in the Wind

I dreamed it again I dreamed the porch lights were all swirled into the wind Like Picasso Your colors were beautifully blended in I was prisoner to your pupils It was as real as it's ever been The impish taunts of a moment designed just to pretend So the story can never start until we find where to begin I guess I'm searching for a preface that was written without a hint Of the anger inside my soul so it could ultimately exist Shit I dreamed it again And the living isn't as precious between strokes of a pen Now there smoke in the wind And my eyes are open again I recognize my depression disguised as jokin' and grins Yeah I'm breathing sulfur again I pushed my fingers into my eyes But I feel hopeless again I gotta focus again A single night full of desire has left me broken again And now there's smoke in the wind I dreamed it again Now I'm feelin' like sleepin' in is no longer my friend Insomnia's closer to sanity than I've ever been So as long as my eyes stay open I can manage to keep it in Yeah I dreamed it again I wrote you and told you 'bout it But I doubt if you'll read it again And at this point I lowkey wanna start poppin' Xany's again Then maybe I'll be able to sleep witout you doin' that dance in my head Yeah Cuz I dreamed it again And I'll always remember how I was a fiend for your skin If God could bring you back, shit I'd start believin' in Him But if I kill the old me, then the new me couldn't exist Yeah I guess I'm breathin' again And tears aren't as bitter when the sunlight comes bumpin' in The day's already started and I swear I feel like garbage But I really really really wanted to get this shit recorded so I guess I'm dreamin again I guess I'm dreamin again Yeah I guess I'm dreamin again