Regrets

I'm only human I'm far from perfect In fact I'm flawed Just really. fucked. up I have lots of regrets... You could say my entire life is a regret There's just so many things that I could of done And I blew it all off because I was cocky and dumb Pushing people away who would of cared and believed Denying opportunities that could of helped me succeed Trying to force my dreams to come true by any means You should hear what people say about me around the scene I was attracted to my mom, instead of my dad... But I didn't know my mom was egotistical and mad She taught me how to be grandiose and naieve And now I'm sitting in my room just smoking lots of weed I really could of used that middle school Because I walk around and I don't know what to do This socialization shit is still a mystery All because I'm living in dysfunctional misery I have lots of regrets... I have lots of regrets... I burn bridges, like almost every day Some meaningless, some I still regret today You want to know why it's easy to fantasize? Because it's hard to believe the truth, it's easy for a lie And I fantasize so much, that I just forget Go to some famous rapper and show disrespect Didn't even take the second chance that was offered It's like the 1,000th time I fucked up, man that's absurd I ask myself, how are you able to do this? I don't know... I guess I can only do dumb shit I look at my hand, deep into my fingerprints I'm just hoping that I can become intelligent So I can salvage what's left of my life Change the course of destiny so we don't have to die tonight I'm not mad if they tell me that it is what it is... Because that's life, and I have to live it I have lots of regrets... I have lots of regrets... I regret the fact I blindly believe a lot of things Especially those on the TV screen I don't know if there'll ever be a difinitive truth They control so much and I don't know what to do It makes me angry when I watch the flashing colors Even though there's sunshine coming through my curtian covers It boils up, until I hit a nazi in the face... And get banned from the block, now I'm a real disgrace! I thought that's what they wanted me to do Now I realize that I've been played for a fool What else is a lie? All the violence and crime It makes people want to go out and buy a nine... And then I read it in the news, another massacre Brainwashed and confused, that's just the nature of the world I regret that we're focused on power, control and status I regret that I was even born into this madness