Expectations

I get down on myself sometimes Must be these expectations I've loved and I've lost Taken leaps of faith no matter what the cost The definition of unorthodox With the music, its pandoras box No return label Bouquet full of Forget-Me-Nots sitting on the table looking at me like "I aint goin nowhere, I'm here for eternity" You can judge away But I'll save all shits to give for another day I've got no hate Regrets or resentments No shade to throw your way I'm as calm as croquet Inside I'm feeling quite fine and A okay My only question is What exactly is occurring and going on up in your brain I turn the page and write the next chapter Think about life and what might come after Still full of joy Lots of laughter The rap on lock Could not be down patter I don't know about you babe But I stay true Thats all that matters Compassion, love and kindness are staples of mine Better yet standards I get down on myself sometimes Write a bunch of dumb rhymes Try to figure out what I can do Say or be Just so I can have a fun time Like Johnny I walk the line But direction is all I'm really trying to find Especially when you want to prove to the world that might be One of a Kind But it often seems like I'm walking blind So I gotta get away, clear my head Way in the mountains, way in the trees Deep out in nature where I need to be Spirit of the Universe, speak to me With my heart wide open I'm ready to start again Back to square one please See, when I follow my gut, everything that I need seems to occur with ease No hyperbolizing, welcome to my journal, say hello to my diary I'm in love with a girl and she has a man But whenever I knock, she doesn't deny me See, everything comes out in the pages I only want to 'make it' to see the look on their faces Is that wrong of me God? I don't man this whole rap thing is just outrageous This whole rap thing is just outrageous Losing my mind Think about you all the time But you only want the attention I really wonder if your man knows there's another guy who's in love with you to who you give affection The bigger question? What the hell's wrong with me assuming I'm the only one with who you have this discreet connection with Yea, but I'm done stressing and I'm done expecting However, who really knows what the future holds? I'll give up a dollar for piles of gold, smile till I'm old Till I fold I'll be on a roll; 'cuz in hindsight? Nobody I know could walk to the beat of my life 'Cuz even when its coal (cold) I'll put the flame to it Ignite my soul Attract the right ones Goodbye to the bull Keep my eye on the goal Progress and conquer, nothing less I just feel honored to be a part of this Living, breathing, healthy at best Put myself to the test only to see how far I can fucking go as I'm running out of time I make the most of it So much to know you could probably write a book on my life even if I died tomorrow