Letter to my brother Suicide Awareness

Dear Lee bro I hope you get this letter that I'm writing you I'm addressing it to heaven to be sent off with them angels now receiving you The pang I saw you struggle with is over No more feeling blue Still it wasn't your time to pass yet so you forced it Breaking into heaven boy you made it into heaven I believe it's true May God reveal it to Mom Your family and friends whom are grieving too With all the things I've been through I thought that I had seen it all yet this was something else Life is hard no doubt about it yet it's hard to understand like What could be so bad that can make anybody do this to themselves Anyways yesterday mom and I was in your room cleaning up All the clothes you left down on the floor Yup we had to pick it up We reminisced on you but it was too cold up in here Cause you wanna know what's up Lee you left the window up So I shut it then I turned the heater up Right after that I got caught up in a trance Lost in all these thoughts of what you did and how it happened that I had to stop what I was doing To write down everything I needed said Before I ended up saying I forgot and even if I did I must say what you did just made you unforgettable like doomsday Deeply engraved this tragedy in my memory Is staying with me til the day that I grow old and grey And all up in my grave Though I know we touched base all up on this subject One too many times so much that I thought I talked you out of it Never really thought you'd actually go through with it At least not the way I witnessed it Straight up it was like a Wait nah hold up This was very much a real live horror scene Worse than any that I've ever seen up in the big screen And even though it's too late It makes it plain for me to see now that your pain was more than I could ever fathom I remember that one time when you said to me That I was sympathetic and I'd never understand unless I became someone who was empathetic In other words you tried to place me in your shoes so that I could feel just like you felt too I couldn't grasp your point of view All I could do was counsel you Giving out pointers as to what I thought that I would do had I been in your shoes Going through the same things that you was going through Reflecting on my past and my current circumstance had me brainwashed thinking that If I can do it you could do it too Now how could I be stupid as a fool Truth be told now I done had my share of suicidal thoughts as well Just never did it cause I didn't believe it but I didn't wanna find out I was wrong And wake up in a burning hell You could call me crazy but it helps me to fully understand that none of us is here to stay for good So keep your head up Nothing on this earth will last forever Have faith and give up never ever It's hard to say goodbye and let you go Lee til we meet again But what's done is done and everybody knows that life goes on So we have no other option but to move on and to stay strong And I'm letting everybody know today Who feel they can't take this anymore Cause their heart and soul feels exceedingly sore As I see those streams from their cheeks flow Let them tears pour as those knees hit the floor Weeping in the presence of the Lord Asking what for am I still alive Is there a purpose will I ever feel the joys of the world That I felt before They don't see this at the moment but those prayers up over the ceiling soaring And yes it touched the loving heart of God cause A broken and contrite heart God could never ignore getting ready to pour a blessing and a miracle On that day you'll realize when the evil one destroys He's the God that restores On that day you'll praise Him like you never have before Face down on the floor Feeling so unworthy as you worship Him with all your Heart, mind, body, and soul So don't worry that's just what he wanted Those that worship Him in spirit and in truth Don't believe me then ask my brother up in heaven He already met Him Am I right Lee? I remember what you used to tell me when you introduced me He's not like my brother he is my brother I don't ever say you're like my brother Cause man you are my brother Those the words that came up out of you Boy you are my brother Rest in peace Lee I'm writing you this letter I sent it off with those angels that are with you