Numb Up (feat. Coco XL)

I remember that nudge in my gut like I should talk to him I walked right by him on that bus, feeling awkward Too scared to follow the spirit, this fear in me kills the love He passed away on Sunday, called it a tragic accident I remember feeling, it wasn’t numb I remember thinking I could change the world, that’s still not done Gotta long road ahead, dull pain in my chest The pleasure is less in things that I used to love I remember looking in the mirror, hating what I see I wanna get away, just wanna feel free I’ll escape from this world, but I can’t escape from my disease I feel heavy like a stone heart is what I’m meant to heave I’ve been diagnosed with a case of the blahs Isolation cultivates this illness 'til I’m gone Just hold the phone and hold your applause Hold a bowl because I’m still feeling nauseous You don’t have to numb up the pain that way We’ve come so far and this stallion they can’t break So take a chance and let’s make a change Keep on fighting, despite the hits you take Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up Why do I think that I’ll find relief if I OD? Why do I hide all this pain inside from my homies? Can they not see through this smile that I’m crying for help? I put every single thing in my life in front of my health I know you think you walk this path alone But you’re not alone And you can always call on me When there is no one left to phone I’ll be right there by your side just to help you make it home I’m still kicking and still fighting I got so much left to live for Every breath I take is a chance for me to give more Bro I promise everything will be okay Even though it hardly ever seems that way Sun is smiling outside with the cool shades And I haven’t left my bed in a few days Weekends were the worst days, yeah Now I’m living every day like my birthday You don’t have to numb up the pain that way We’ve come so far and this stallion they can’t break So take a chance and let’s make a change Keep on fighting, despite the hits you take Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up I try to remember, I try to be better I try to repent after I try to get severed I’m trying to numb up the pain bingeing Netflix I'm trying to forget the times I’m embarrassed Try to reach up, my arms aren’t long enough Try to keep up, my lungs aren’t deep enough My heart is numbed up, I still try to seek love Father said you keep on trying, that’s why I love you son Not alone, though it feels like it sometimes Caught a cold, corona fever in my mind Lost the hope, I was clinging like a life line But got the gold finally at a high price Heavenly Father can see your potential You got His blood inside your veins It hurts my heart that you’re suffering But you don’t have to escape You don’t have to numb up the pain that way We’ve come so far and this stallion they can’t break So take a chance and let’s make a change Keep on fighting, despite the hits you take Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb Nuh nuh nuh numb No need to numb up Bought by the blood Call it red emption