Battles With Anxiety
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Welcome to my battles with anxiety Some battles that get bigger now Battles that i live with And some battles i can't live without Battles that are stand up And some battles that's gon sit me down Battles that i understand And battles i can't figure out Battles with my sleep patterns Since i barely sleep at night Battles with my appetite Since i'm barely eating right Battle with this life When i barely see the reasons why Battles with my demons When i'm lonely and i keep em by Battle with some choices Of having to make some choices Battles with keeping it quiet Or me making noises Battle with using my voice As a voice for the voiceless Battles of me trying to Hate this shit or enjoy it Battles of if these new morals Should probably bend a bit Battles of embracing my pain For my own benefit Battles of my love Should i stop trying to rekindle it Battles with forgetting them Or me tryna remember em ahh Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking Suicidal suicidal suicidal These thoughts got me stinking And i hold it in cause it hurts It don't make sense for what's it worth Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking Back to fake smiling Back to fake happiness Back to cover how i Feel with some flashiness Jewelry on expensive just to Cover what i'm lacking in My confidence is low feel like Being happy's a accident Or maybe it's cause life never Went the way i imagined it I never was the kid with Good grades or straight A's College dropout and in my mind That's the last of it The money i make i don't think I deserve half of it Why am i blessed When i question my faith Or feel like giving up in life When things don't go my way Or maybe i find new pleasures When i'm going through pain Or feeling younger in ways While getting older in age I feel i never deserve the love That she might bring Cause i can't love her how she Love me and it might sting Me thinking we have an us And well that's unlikely Every girl that cheat on me or Leave me did the right thing ahh Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking Suicidal suicidal suicidal These thoughts got me stinking And i hold it in cause it hurts It don't make sense for what's it worth Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking All the money in this world Ain't good enough The highest love with my girl Ain't good enough The newest home newest car Higher credit healthy food Church service none of that Is even good enough God's love my mom's love Wasn't good enough Family time family fun Wasn't good enough Doing things to feel young Wasn't good enough Shutting it off and running Wasn't good enough Me getting good sleep Wasn't good enough Me having great dreams Wasn't good enough Me loving what i see Wasn't good enough Since me looking at me Wasn't good enough And being who i wanna be Wasn't good enough And the bible's that i read Wasn't good enough I'm thinking having me a seed Won't be good enough A version of little me Won't be good enough nah Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking Suicidal suicidal suicidal These thoughts got me stinking And i hold it in cause it hurts It don't make sense for what's it worth Suicidal suicidal suicidal The pills got me thinking This how my anxiety sound Pin it down Quiet down and you could hear it loud Bunch of bells bunch of noises Bunch of distorted voices in my head And i can't focus you would think That i enjoy it When i'm out here and annoyed with What i see i think it's poison And i barely see the reasons When i think my life is pointless And my purpose disappear from me on purpose That's the verdict When i'm less encouraged And 'im less determined Less deserving So i never see the better way It's all a dream i never chase If i told my moms my problems She gon say you better pray So you don't look like better prey To demons that you reaching And you seeking when you speak It's so convenient get your head on straight Why i'm thinking that nothing is enough huhh Why i'm looking at my wrists And want some cuts huhh Why i wanna slide that knife in my throat But never go through with it Cause i don't got the guts huhhh So tell me what this is posed to be like Headache pills on my dresser giving me life I'm smiling hiding everything it seems like They would think i'm too strong To be this weak right God don't slide to the left Hope he keep right But i barely ate And i don't sleep right I gotta question if this is just a phase Or i'm addicted to the pain Cause i know i'm who to blame Cause i know i ain't the same And i like it cause it's strange Separation from another person This is how i'm made Or is this what i became My anxiety my case Shadows on the wall My best friends when people run away And they should hide for cover Since they knowing i ain't safe Put herself in harm's way If i'm the one she wanna date It's a chance she'll lose the game If i'm the one she wanna play It's a chance she'll pay the price More than she's willing to save look I guess i'm trauma bonding With this new identity But what that mean when Everything good is my enemy Overdose pills to sleep Headshot Kennedy Lord forgive me I don't even care if they remember me While i'd gladly turn myself to a memory I put the shots to myself if they trigger me People love me so this exit gon be bittersweet I gave them all the signs So is it them or me No lie this pain is real like that Gotta have a numb heart To make it feel like that Gotta burn the bridge That you helped build like that So i pop another pill And i be right back ughh
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Written by: Cyle Jones, Joshua Thomas, Lexi Banks
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