Fear of Drinking
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Everywhere you go Whether America Or Jakarta, Indonesia Or Canada Or British Columbia Or Vancouver You can connect Suddenly With a bunch of alcoholics In a meeting While your non-alcoholic boyfriend Has to engage in a more-organic process Grandma died And I cried In a meeting Thinking of her And of how lucky I was To have a partner Who told me to drop Everything Get on a plane Go see her again Before we left for Indonesia Even though There was so much to do Finishing co-writing a textbook Selling my condo and belongings The ones other people might buy On eBay or Craigslist Scanning and taking photos Of all the artworks I'd made and kept Since I was kid The letters The poems The videos Of performances And then making several copies Of the digital files On several DVDs Almost feeling Like I should toss them away too Make a clean break From the inferior copies Along with the originals Stop adding and multiplying The long line Of my nostalgic calculations Not sleeping well again Now that we were in Canada Even though there were whole weeks While we we're in Jakarta Where I skipped My sleeping medication And dreamt roller coasters Of feelings Angels singing Wrapping me up in so much love That all I could do was cry In my sleep Beside my partner On the third floor With the noisy vehicles Driving by on the potholed street And the mosque next door With its blown out speaker Calling all the men to prayer And to put up a banner Condemning the American president To death Something was different About Canada Or about me in Canada The gay AA meetings Felt like a ghetto And I wanted to escape Into the mainstream To live in the suburbs And walk to the meeting Around the corner As if there was nothing Different or out of place About me Oh sure, all the heteros Had to remark About how courageous How... myself Such an inspiration I was For a few months Some longer Some shorter But eventually I became Just one of the guys And one of the girls And the women Who couldn't stand other women And who were afraid of men For many, many understandable reasons Asked me to sponsor them And it was a bit of a controversy In the suburban AA community Because the girls Should stick with the girls And the boys Should stick with the boys Don't you know Don't go Setting dangerous precedents In our fragile ecology Even if you are A little different But I was a dozen years sober So who could tell me How to live How to work my program How to be True to myself How I should or shouldn't Share my experience My strength My hope Share about the messy meandering Of my journey About how I drank Because I was afraid to live So I'll be damned if I'm going To stop living For fear of drinking
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