Having Hope

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Ryley Michael

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I've been going around and around this mountain for like 6 years now
And I just keep on coming back to the same exact place
I keep going around and around in circles and I just
I keep coming back to the same pain
Same pain a different day same hate a different place
Alot of hurt still hanging in my closet, closed up in the boxes, got a lot of dirt on my outfits
Truth is that my mind's on the fritz and I don't wanna be like this no more
Closed up, held up in my own head, man I'm feeling like I'm bout to explode
I've known for 6 years where to run to but every time that I've turned to the Lord dude
It was good for a minute till I fell through, every time that it came to the healing of my soul
Healing of the pain, anger, hate it was time for that full forgiveness and
Every time that it was I ran away, truth is I've been doing it lately
The same thing and it's crushing all my dreams man, every time that I'm looking in the mirror I
Can't see me all I see is He the evil one and I know he's trynna kill me
In my dreams, no these are nightmares and I cry tears, scream at the top of my lungs
I can't say that I don't know what to do cause I do, but I'm still out here on the run
Why cause I'm afraid to be real with God, afraid to be true to me and show the real me to everyone of y'all
Cause every time that I have, I've been crushed to the bottom and if I'm honest, I'm afraid you're my laugh
At my struggles and my pain, my joy and everything that I delight in boy
Yeah, I know I need to change before I end up in the same place, same pain, same hate
No way not again, even though it burns, I'ma burn away my skin
Trade it all away for the beauty of him, I'm a face fears time for the healing to begin
In my heart today, please y'all pray, that any time Satan or my flesh get in the way
That I just push it away and not indulge in the pain, cause I've been waiting on the Lord everday, yeah
Yeah it's ugh pretty crazy cause you know when I wrote the song back in a 2014
This is where I was and then I come back and I record this song
Here in 2018, October of 2018 and
I had a breakdown because I began to realize
It's been 4, 5 years since I wrote this song
And here I am once again back in pretty much the same place
I don't really wanna be here again In another 5 years
It's time for reconciliation, quit the masturbatin', all the savage hatin' lusful thinking no more saying
That I can do this on my own, cuz I've been saying that for way too long
My mind corrupted but my heart has been eruptin' way before I ever seen the King of Kings, knew His love
Fell in love, wrote a song that is proof from our hearts that we want more than anything to live a life with purpose
The truth be that this walk is never easy not for me, not for he, not for she
Not for anybody in the whole world who's ever felt pain in their heart like a dart shot out of the dark
Straight into your heart, I know this firsthand, just like you that it began right at your lifes start
Devils been tearin' apart, makes you forget who you are, do not forget who you are, Devil is real
He's trying to get you to die to your heart's desires, truth is I killed my heart long ago, some may say I lost my soul
Didn't think my dreams mattered so I killed them at the root, thought I wouldn't have to face the pain if they died before they bloomed
But truth is, it's causeing way more pain than anything in my heart, anything in this brain
This is making me insane, not thinking that I can change, not knowing of anything that I can do to make a change in my life
Change in the world, change in these people, change in these boys and girls, cuz my eyes so closed
Took my eyes off hope, now my heart so broke, I don't know if i can take it anymore
As the walls close in, tunnel vision no mission, hearts missing so many pieces and I just wanna be free
But I can't be, not with these walls closein' all around me, eyes wired shut looking at all my surroundings
With this poor heart so broken, hearts now open, I don't know when or how can I trust again the whole world's broken
I feel hopeless, Lord give me something, I need to hear you please Daddy I'm chokin
On my own words, hate, blame, shame, I'm in pain, I don't know what to say
Except Daddy, you're the only 1 that can bring me hope today
In fact, you're the only 1 that can bring me hope any day of the week
Any time of the day, Lord it's you and you alone always
There's no more they can do for me, they can't bring me peace, they can't bring me joy
They can't heal my pain they can't fill this void, that's inside of my heart where you belong or Lord
It is impossible to fill this void without you
Thank you God, I thank you that when you made me
You made me so that any time I'm not walking with you
I can Fill the void in my heart and sometimes it literally feels like a gaping hole
And I don't even realize it but I'm not even walk I'm with you
When I try to find satisfaction in other the places like
Music or people, entertainment, pornography or even rage
And I forget that My wounds can only be healed by coming to you God

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