Brutally Honest 2
UnoDeuce
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I don't know how to start it I feel like my head is clouded I feel like since I was carted To hospital I been out of it Tachycardia hearted My brain is behind a shroud Formerly high regarded But currently feeling down My thoughts are bouncing around in my head like it's pinball But if I'm around a crowd it's like I could hear pins fall I see things a little different The image burn in my retina Nothing there when I'm listening What I heard was malevolent Giving my affidavit just make it feel validated I'm begging to get it out but this track I already hate it I'm googling psychosis Not telling my homies I feel like it'd drive home the idea my mind's gone And 23 years of living and not a speck on the record But 24 years of living I think I'm ready to exit Memories from today are suddenly feeling distant The border of dream and reality is constantly shifting I barely dream anymore and I used to keep 'em in lists I once had feet on the floor and now I'm an apparition My body and mind are sober To substance I can't attribute Decomposition of mental I'm simply losing my grip Maybe it's cause I'm clean and it's all psychosomatic I look at mirror and see I'm either psycho or addict I'm scared to go to the doctor I don't want em to confirm it I'm randomly getting hostile My feelings randomly hurting The gerbil inside my noggin is tossing and fucking turning Religion of hypochondria Long ago I converted I close my eyes and the colors and shapes are extremely vivid The internet says it's normal but I'm not really convinced I'm thinking maybe it's something in me that's always existed And alcohol and dissociatives only made me resist it It's like I covered my window with mud until it was splattered And then I wipe it away and I realize the window's shattered I don't know which I prefer Rather get it refurbished House itself is okay The attic should be repurposed Housekeeper is a therapist Promise to keep it furnished Don't look inside the window it makes me extremely nervous Is it hallucination or maybe I'm schizophrenic Maybe it's my anxiety, all of it in my head But I'd rather go get a medic But now the bills are impending I already fried my liver which drained me of every penny Propranolol and the Antabuse Ativan and the Xanax With none of which that I've touched I'm afraid it puts me in panic Although 3 out of the 4 of 'em meant to stop it I can't get over the fact the side effects may be what makes me manic Or sends me over the edge And I kinda made me a pledge That I'd keep up the streak of sobriety for at least a second And now it's been seven months and each second is getting tougher And not to mention the music This album is never coming I keep on doing these features But solo tracks are amounting I'm running out of ideas My writer's block insurmounted The track you're currently hearing is coming from desperation I'm on the way back from wedding A good reminder I'm hated These symptoms of which I've listed are opposite of abating And now I'm getting berated by self Why aren't you dating I had an excuse for years I gained a whole lotta weight My confidence at its lowest Despair and the self hatred But now that I've lost it all I'm running out of excuses I empty my bank account and I spend each dollar on shoes I get me designer clothes and I spray it down with perfume I'm only making the effort for superficial improvement Face is so fucking stupid Weight loss is so facetious No amount of Dasani can change the color of teeth Hairline is going backward Underbite going forward My smile is fucking crooked My stomach is fucking horrid I'm not body dysmorphic I'm simply stating the truth My head is on way too tight to think of knocking it loose I'd rather work out my issues without any medication I feel like that'd be the cleanest I even tried meditation But how do I climb a mountain without any celebration Instead to see 50 more as shoes tear at the laces I have a hundred good friends But have I returned the favor Or have they returned the favor I don't know if I'm the savior Or if I'm the broken angel It's hard enough to keep track Of AA meetings each day let alone if I'm giving back And I've always been one to check in on friends cause it's so important But in the back of my mind I wonder if I've annoyed 'em I don't wanna come off like I'm the one that's anointed And Heaven knows I have issues I hear em at each appointment And every therapy session my doctor says I'm a hero He can't see behind the curtains much less see into my mirror I had a job interview and I can't believe that I missed it That shit was my dream job and somehow was realistic They sent me an email and even though I was looking For messages every day I think that I had mistook it As spam or solicitation a month and a half late Distressed when I called 'em back and they sealed me up with my fate This shit is doubly awful when I been trying to move Up out of LA to home so I get back in my groove And that's a whole other story This city is moving fast I truly do love the culture but personalities clash And my engineer is here He's truly a fucking legend And I had checked my IG You'll never guess who had messaged My number one fucking idol had hit me up with his number He told me to hit him up so I did thinking it was nothing He said that he's been listening Really fucks with my music So how in the f*ck could I ever consider moving If I stay then I'm healthy in body but not the mind If I move then I'm safe but my career will start declining If I stay then I'm taking advantage of opportunity If I leave then I'm starting the path to hopefully newer me There's not a perfect answer I don't think there ever was And please don't look in my window I'm trying to keep it shut
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