522
Nimz
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It's 2am and I want to go to sleep This pit is deep And large enough for what's coming I think Want to shut down my mind but it's hyperventilating This room is dark So dark my pupils are dilating It's not that I can't see but I'm seeing way too many things Bricks around my feet From all this deconstructing And it's tiring And draining and asking so much of me This faith it Doesn't fit me anymore Like a shirt I've outgrown Once fond but know unable to hold me Or my questions And my questions are more than my answers And unanswered questions make me anxious What do I do with a Jesus Stripped of his cultural identity at the hands of white supremacy? People stolen from their land Stolen from her people Bible in hand Slave whip in the other Imperialists tearing down my ancestors altars Slavery justified colonialism actualized What do I do with all this color blindness Erasing culture more than celebrating it How do I belong if my people can't fit in this? Bricks around my feet From all this How do I reconcile in my woman body A faith that seems to exclude me And blame me Don't tempt him Dress this way keep him from sinning Can't fight for women and love God? All this intersectionality is at crossroads What am I supposed to do if oppressive systems Seem to be affirmed by my belief structures? We say come as you are But do we really mean it? People as projects Idolizing the mission A disembodied religion No one cares for your gospel if you're not gonna feed them Bread of life lands better on a full stomach Warmth of Christ shines best if they're not freezing Cycles of poverty but you're asking people to sow a seed dang A faith silent amidst injustice Shouldn't we be the loudest activists? Loving our neighbor suddenly only a suggestion Bricks around my feet From all this deconstructing And then of course There's unhelpful Christian optimism Sometimes saying Jesus loves you isn't the most helpful thing Our perspectives turned temples Frameworks now cathedrals Consumeristic churches Judging strugglers Shaming doubters And seriously You defend your abusive church leader But judge a woman afraid to keep her kid Make it make sense Always hyper focusing on the damn wrong thing Bishops pointing fingers at pregnant girls And telling them it's their fault They should wear longer skirts Bricks around my feet From all this I'm thinking about the manipulation that's thick in the walls of our most holy places And our tendencies to bibliolatry And how the whole canon thing doesn't even make sense to me And systematics of theology are beginning to irritate me The expectation to have all this clarity and certainty There's more comfort closing my text book than reading it I don't know what to do with this cold heart and these closed fists This faith shouldn't make me defensive I..I thought God was liberating Now I choke on the vows I made when I was 12 What if I walk away? What if His grace that I told the people about is no longer strong enough for me to stay? What if quote-on-quote heresy is appealing to me? what if what if what if What if What if I don't care about these bricks anymore What if What if I'm stone cold
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