Sinner Pt. 3 [LOVE IS HELL]

Yeah See it's been hard for me to be myself I look in the mirror and I can't see myself Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you) My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving 'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill (I see you) I can't love now I can't trust now I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now I can't lose you I can't keep you I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you) Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you But we ended up as the type of people that don't love 'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you) But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me And I don't know how much longer I can stay The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you) And it's like, having trouble finding myself I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost Looking for ourselves in a place where we're all lost I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through I'm empty now and it's been a while since I've spoke to you I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too But maybe that's the reason why I just couldn't get close to you (I see you) You're no good, your love is dressed in destruction I pushed away but without you I couldn't function I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real 'Cause I just keep numbing the pain 'til I feel nothing in these (I see you) Nightmares haunt me still but I just keep dreaming If God exists tell me why I only see demons? Yeah I only see demons Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you) We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now So all the smiles we give to people are fake now And we just hide how we feel so we never break down And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you) I wish I didn't have to take these pills But I just needed something that can make me feel I just needed something that could take what's real And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you) I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness? Fuck, who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness? I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you