Die Alone

I roll over and go to reach for you, you're gone This bed's empty without you You said you're moving on But I'm having some trouble getting there But dwelling ain't getting me, uhh, anywhere Fuckin' Valentine's Day Fuck February, stuffed teddy bear, guts everywhere Machete on the floor, I smashed up every mirror Yeah, how do I look? You fuckin' just let me here to die didn't you? Why didn't you respond yet? I've written you five or six different times and I'm gettin' sick and tired of always apologizing to you I didn't do shit to deserve what you're puttin' me through This couldn't be true, we can't be over So violets are blue, roses are red Why is it everything I do I'm reminded of you? Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night I saw my Lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light Saw my old sweetheart she said, "honey, I'm back" Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone Guess I gotta deal with the fact that, you ain't never comin' back Now every woman that I look at I'm lookin' for you So I'm findin' something the matter with them Excuse to not see anyone Useless, rather pick up the phone, not at all, followin' protocol I get bowled like bowling balls Grow balls and go to call to talk, forget what I want to say Damnit I'm drawin' blanks like I'm playin' hangman I'm sick of playin' these games, I can't handle this heartbreak It's makin' me wanna blow out my brains Like birthday cake candles Hang up the phone and I shake, I think I may have made a mistake Can't escape the madness Turn the radio on, I hate this sad song But I can't even change the station The same one's playin' on eight channels I lay awake in shambles, I'm startin to hallucinate I'm havin' all these visions of us at each other's wakes In caskets and suddenly I wake and that's when I know I Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night I saw my Lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light Saw my old sweetheart she said, "honey, I'm back" Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone Give me one more, bottle for the pain Give me one more for the memories Give me one more, I'll make it taste like a steak It'll help alleviate It'll soothe this ache Of trying to fake That she's really, she's really coming back And it's been a while now, but I finally realize how Much reality sucks, but it's just something about our love I'm still in denial now, dealing with the finality of it And it's making me crazy thinking of the days we, spent And how I'll never hold you again And there ain't shit I can do about it Now my head is overcrowded With these clouded memories and I can't seem to get you out it And how the fuck do you sleep comfortably Knowing what you done did to me, huh? Did it even occur to you that I loved you, humbly Completely, madly, head over heels for you Was you and me, wants us to be together forever It was supposed to be us, but you crushed the dream We was supposed to die together, and it's killing me so much When I sleep I wake up dead, must be why I Saw two white coffins in my dreams last night I saw my Lord Jesus with his hands pointing toward the light Saw my old sweetheart she said, "honey, I'm back" Just so you don't die alone, just so you don't die alone