Not Myself (feat. John Rushton)

I'm not myself right now something went Crazy how all this shit started for fun Now all these shows that I'm doing aint fun But imma keep moving cause I made the one I'm not myself right now something went Tryna put on for the place that I'm from Nobody knows bout the place that I'm from So I'm tryna put us all on all on I got some gang that came up from the slums They from the cid bitch like go grab a gun Crazy how all of this started for fun Fuck it we taking out some of the drums My time, its my time I've been at it for a long time Red shirt season baby I was on the sideline You was my lifeline, something I had in the night time Put that all behind, cause I'm I'm scared right now I feel dead right now Not myself right now I'm scared right now I need help right now By myself right now I'm scared right now I feel dead right now Not myself right now I'm scared right now I need help right now By myself right now Should probably call me a therapist Haunted by thoughts that I'm constantly carrying Only escapes through this art that I cherish lately It seems like its all the same narrative Its hard to be mindful of that shit Whenever I've been stuck with a mindful of madness A war going on, my mind is help captive If these walls could talk they'd likely be padded Lost touch with the person that I thought I was Mamma worried every time that she calls me up While my friends try and tell me I don't talk enough I don't really have the energy Yeah struggle just to manage the fear the man in the mirror It's a long road ahead and I cannot see clear Gods been calling I aint answered in years So hand me a beer for the loss of the sanity, cheers Drown in my sorrow with me, they'll be gone once the bottles empty Who have I become and its all a mystery Pouring out all of my pain on the rocks don't tempt me Like hear me out, I'm on the ledge right now And the drugs they don't help right now Do you care right now, would you help me down If I tried to put an end to what I felt right now I'm scared right now I feel dead right now Not myself right now I'm scared right now I need help right now By myself right now I'm scared right now I feel dead right now Not myself right now I'm scared right now I need help right now By myself right now