The Shit That Fucks Me Up

I saw a vision the other night That didn't sit right And she told me all about her dream's That nightmare was disguised Told me that she saw me die Am I really that toxic? Interpret all these dreams The way they see fit And run off with the star dust collectible coin Rolling for the Royce Traumatized by shit I seen or heard But making it just fine Still question it like why? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I guess that's the shit they all replace That's the shit that fuck me up Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I said Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I guess that's the shit they all replace That's the shit that fuck me up Plotting on the next move The date keep popping up To my surprise she loves me, But I feel I never give enough Of my self Am I selfish or just selfless with the work? All I do for purpose Never saw myself as the nerd More than in between the middle I'm just ruling out the lines The stare you give is precious And this the type of feeling I can't shake off in a second You're unlike all my exes More perfect than a bunch Now we about to grab a brunch But I hate the restaurants Between the covid scares And sheep out there It's hard to truly handle Got the first shot of Pfizer Now it's onto the next one Rewriting all the scripts for what's next Everything that I manifest, Visions that out speak my mind And wind up off the pen Probably wrote this in my Apple notes To spit it all again And I just wanna let you know I love you so Wether you bought my album, stream or pirate Never made a difference tho Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I guess that's the shit they all replace That's the shit that fucks me up It's a method to my madness It's a twist to all the love Insane how many songs I made that never hit a lot I'm just grateful for the real ones I'm just happy that you heard We off the scale and off the rip Go pilot on the third But now I need a visa So we take that trip to Europe But with the world locked down I ain't tryna screw up Just looking for the right direction Followed my path Been blinded by the lights For weekends all again Been drinking less And thinking more And smoking all the same Life's slowly changed they just tryna play the game Dope ass artist with a whole lot to say You wish your little clique was poppin', boy you need more time But I could write 1, 000 lines that could make you think about your life And that's the place I don't want you in, been making all remarks Closet viewing Quote on quote Blowing up? Go suck a dick You fucking slut's I'm off this shit That's on my fucking nuts Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I said, Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? I guess that's the shit they all replace That's the shit that fuck me up Why you always call me when you're lonely? Why you never call me when you're drunk? Why you always call me when you're lonely? Lonely Why you never call me when you're drunk? Drunk drunk Why you always call me when you're lonely? Lonely Why you never call me when you're drunk? Fuck it I guess that's the shit they all replace That's the shit that fuck me up