Venting

Why'd I have to be born Why wasn't my attraction to this rappin reformed Why is my passion ignored Why was it my compassion for a wack bitch was scorned Why'd I ever think my chances with you'd last when he warned That doing stuff behind the back would only crash and be swarmed By that pseudo smiling psychopath who actually swore That she was true when all she'd do was end up acting to scores What if I gave up and went back Bent out on a mission cuz the same friend that been wack Lying on me just cuz she was tryin to get her friend back Mad cuz my position in your life would have an impact Who's to say we'd even be together Truth is change and death the only promise life has made me ever But a ruthless rage to make me better Grew within me, old instructives used to loop like breaking records Cuz even when the mood was great The usual me came and grew unruly tryin to escape And by losing We I knew its fate Its silly even thinking mine would be in tune with new estates And now all I do is move ahead Living out the movie even though sometimes what Uzi said Kinda makes me want to bed All these fucking truant scenes I knew once playing thru my head And if I came to terms with how it went How does it still break my heart And why is all this pain still pent Locked up in my brain and bent Feeling like an obstacle Impossible to shake I'm spent So I just harness it and write it out Knowing all the harm it did Expose it as I fight this bout Cuz I can only hope I might get out The self destructive cycles thru And homies flow is lightin crowds And I ain't even really tryin hard Too consumed with being who my managers relyin on Cuz the truth is me and my whole squad Been doin life and tryin to keep from losing sleep and dying on The truth the speech in my own songs And brutal beats that right along Construe the streets I'm riding on a daily Grouping my own flaws Prove to me that I'm no crazy loser But a student bringing mindful sense and do it raw But they complaining and they staying sick Mad cuz when they hear my name they aint me and they hate the gift The sentimental angry rip microphones to disarray imprinting in your brain the bip Breaking out your windows Running trains on instrumentals I create without a stencil It's the greatest out to get you Spoutin game from out the mental Til the grave I'm pounding in you I guess I'm just not fuckin dedicated What the fucks it gonna take for me to make the bed I lay in And how can I contest the playlist I ain't even doin shows or even got a set list waitin But all they rappin sounds the same Always trappin houndin fame It's always acting clowns insane I'm known to be around this game Peeping those that sounding dope And known for reaching out the same But people don't accept the vibe They seem to wanna check the time Then creep away and step aside I speak with aim to rectify The feeble state address the minds as equally aggressive find The arrogance is meritless My city's only claim to hip hops terribly embarrassing And once my terroristic spirits lift I'm telling you that steering clears the only way you'll veer this trip You probably wanna hate me how I'm not important relevant and not a source you're making proud So honor sport and take me down Spawn and torch and aim it at my collar and embrace me now A lot of shit is different now My daughters back and all I got is all about the princess crown With all my love I'm drifting out Calling on the bigger picture fall in bruh let print this out The immaculate conception Cuz the answers wasn't ever gave from asking what the question Stay harassing til the weathers changed And casually accept that they don't have to make exceptions And I'll never claim I'm great at life But what I'll say is you won't ever feel the fuckin pain of mine Ill be there every way to find And you won't ever feel the need to hesitate explaining why