Desperate

Now I'm too strong to be weak Been messed up too many weeks Emotions are at a peak Struggling to stay on my feet Too many nights I went sleepless Stuck in bed, the bleakness Of my Mind, tears falling, it's so seamless Lips quiver, I'm left speechless Words coming from the deepest Dark side of my genius It's a strength, it's a weakness Wanna let it out, I know I'm willing But I know one day my thought process will kill me Those aren't words for help, it's just a feeling Hide the shame with a smile, this is the real me My music doesn't come from joy, rather pain Wrote so many songs I feel literally insane People look so close at whatever we do Don't like what they see, comments are rude, crude, lewd Can't feel an emotion, can't be in a mood Judging left and right, bro I'm just a dude That pretty soon, express how I feel You say it's too much, I say it's too real What's the deal Pursuit of Happiness I'm desperate for the love Desperate to be good enough Pursuit of Happiness I'm desperate to change, my life my story Desperate to take away the pain, I can't take this anymore see Im in desperation phase, trying to find a better place Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days I'm desperate, trying to find a better place Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days Tired of All this pointless banter I'm making this looking for an answer I wish my mind had better standards Wanna figure out how in the hell do I matter Getting worse instead of climbing the ladder I wanna smile, but my mental would rather Sit here in pain, sit here in sorrow Knowing myself it'll be the same thing tomorrow It'll be the same thing tomorrow I wish I could tell you that I never heard a thing But my mind was more engaged than a couple with some rings I wanted to be what you wanted from me, want to be the perfect human being I want his voice, his flow, to rejoice, his glow, the joy, great shows, I hear the noise, I know It's not my choice whether or not my career grows I'm never trying to slow, and I'm hoping that it shows I Wanna dance, wanna groove, take a stance, start to move Stick to plans, and improve, take a chance, but stay true I wish I was as good as how I dreamt I was, I'll keep working till it happen, even if never does Have to take a step back and look at what I'm doing Visions to change my life, but I never started moving Unhappy so I start to ruin, any chance I have at retribution Now I'm just making this music, hoping music is my solution Pursuit of Happiness I'm desperate for the love Desperate to be good enough Pursuit of Happiness I'm desperate to change, my life my story Desperate to take away the pain , I can't take this anymore see Im in desperation phase, trying to find a better place Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days I'm desperate, trying to find a better place Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days