OCD

Sometimes the pain doesn't go away We just find a new way to nurture it I remember I remember everything Your mumbling Your stuttering I understand you were scared and got this cold cold shoulder Turn your back on your daughter To have kisses of your lover I remember My heart turned cold as December But I have high hopes I know the moon glows in the dark during winter I know you'll say forgiveness is the way What's the price I paid to harbor this pain I got this OCD Can't sleep cus the cycles go constantly OCD To deal with the remnants of these memories OCD My mind is trapping me OCD But I'm Living I count everyday, all day When I okay, when I'm afraid Everything, a pattern, a test and trial And no one understands When I try to get it out I go baseboards, window panes, eyes and ears Am I insane? Mailboxes, light post Man, am I a freak show? Toes, shoes, mops, brooms Eyelashes and rocks too No one will Understand it like I do I got this OCD Can't sleep cus the cycles go constantly OCD To deal with the remnants of these memories OCD My mind is trapping me OCD But I'm Living I was present for the secrets Hush now & don't let no one hear them Always been real good at their keepin' Until eventually I begin to feel it I keep my feelings in And people out I never know where these thoughts go Can't slow it down Not on my own I got this OCD Can't sleep cus the cycles go constantly OCD To deal with the remnants of these memories OCD My mind is trapping me OCD But I'm Living