Holdin On

I don't Wanna Slip Into the depression that I thought I conquered And lose control of my life all over a bitch Who left me without considering the slim Chance of survival my life has without her being apart of it I keep my head up and try to pretend That I got it all together upstairs, when really I'm tryna convince My own self that only stones and sticks Can break me down, there's no way I'm on the ground over a girl who called it quits All these other hoes affected by my lack of affection But when I do the shit to her, she doesn't pay it attention I could fuck another bitch and she would probably accept it But if she fucks another nigga, I'd create some weapons to leave him headless And would still have this pinned up aggression That can always find the entrance, but never the exit My tunnel vision for you got me losing connection With who I am as a whole, I'll lose my soul before I lose my hold I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I know, I know, I told myself plenty of times befo' That this will be the last time I'll be traveling on this road But before I head home is when your face decides to show And it gives me faith to fight for us and never lose my hold Which really sucks because in doing so, there's not as many pros As there are to cons, me loving you really does take its toll I'm lying to my niggas and I'm compromising goals I'm fighting off these feelings praying that they never show But I can't hide it much longer, I think I'm gonna explode I'm always hearing a ring, I'm always checking my phone Always seeing your face when I know that I am alone I'm always finding your name when I'm going over my notes All of my achievements and everything that I own Has suddenly lost its meaning in the same way that you've gone I haven't even been sleeping, I can't keep my eyes closed Without jumping up, I'm screaming these words out of my throat I'M STILL HOLDIN’ ON I'm still holdin' on I'm still holdin' on I'm still holdin' on Now if your best friend seen what you did to me I wouldn't be the bad guy in our history But it's cool Now if my best friend seen what you did to me As a man, I would lose all my dignity So I'm cool Mentally, you're toxic A poison in disguise But I continue to indulge For reasons I have yet to find I swear I blocked your number in attempts to sever ties But when you exit from my life, you find the entrance to my mind I gotta be a man when I'm just hanging with the guys I can never let them see how you killed me on the inside I call you out on shit, but when you call me out on mine I can feel sanity slip, but I must swallow my pride Forgive me if I loved you incorrectly Sometimes I jump the gun when I feel that you disrespect me All I know of love is how my father did my mother The lying and the violence don't mean that you love each other And I see that now I remember when you told me that I may have a problem I believe that now But you loved me despite what I had going on So until you come back, I'm still holdin' on I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go I'm still holdin' on And I can't let go