Trapped

Victimized, scrutinized I am here to survive How you live? (trapped) How you die? (trapped) All determines really what you really feel inside (trapped) Insecure (trapped), what you need? I am not here to be 1 percent or 99, I want it all I swear to God, by myself Anxiety (trapped), anxiousness (trapped), misery (trapped) Lose your dreams (trapped), lose your mind I can travel inside my mind like all the time Do what I gotta do to get into your vibe No right or wrong, been moving when we moving right Say my name in the mirror 30 times When this song is over, we will lead a normal life (trapped) These eyes, they won't be fake, no Screwed up, but I'll be gentle Been drivin', been drinkin' Lord help me, this is not right State your claims and play your games This is no rap embrace We just rhyme, press rewind Let's replay, and let's get down These eyes, they won't be fake, no Screwed up, but I'll be gentle Been drivin,' been drinkin' Lord help me, this is not right State your claims and play your games This is no rap embrace We just rhyme, press rewind Let's replay, and let's get down Let's get down, let's replay Let's get down, let's replay Let's get down, let's replay Let's get down, let's replay In the middle of no where I see happy people In the middle of no where the bloodsheds thy people In the middle of no where I see happy people In the middle of no where the bloodsheds thy people I woke up this morning and I asked myself "Is life worth living, should I blast myself? And when I'm gone would they remember?" Only son of Deborah, born in late December Would my women cry for me when they get the news That they future baby daddy Hanging from a noose I don't wanna cry, be a better way Don't ever want to see her die, so I found an escape Should I leap head first off the fire escape? Or should I take the easy way, shoot myself in the face? I can't really explain (no no no no no) What got me feelin' this way To all my fans, I'm truly sorry that I had to end it But keep your minds open, and my verses in your memory In disbelief, at least I made it to a quarter century Just tryna give you a good ending for the documentary I won't give you reasons why I had to do it Just know I'm going through it And I really had to do it Get it together, fuck is you doin' God got my number blocked My calls, he never answered Who's to blame, myself, the bullet or the handgun? The night time's the hardest time to be alive Only sleepin' with women I love I got insomnia I got a bad case of 4 A.M. regrets You know, like when you can't sleep, layin' in your bed Replaying all them things you wish you never did Voices in my head, sleep paralysis Countin' sheep all week I'm half-past dead Vision clouded Voices, whispers, are they talkin' about me?