Mental Torture
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Yeah I guess it's too late to go back, huh? Wish things were different. I guess I didn't see your pain But you didn't see mine either When you were struggling I moved to your house to get you stable When I was kicked out you brought me in I'll always be grateful In Arizona I finally was mentally healthy And when I needed them most they ditched me and you helped me Everything fell apart and I caved when they dropped me I had a girl I woulda married now she didn't talk to me I did my best but you know long distance had always got me I even begged her to move in before her parents blocked me I remember the last time I would ever have called her She wanted us to stay in contact, I declined the offer And now I'm by myself and All this was because I couldn't shut up when fighting with my cousin when she would Roar and holler! I guess I understand why you would think I blame you for it But that was not the reason why I'm in your face and roaring! Imagine being the one to take the brunt of the mental war you get That's stormin' when you have a flash and back in time you're going I am not the one who fucked you up when you were snoring I would never hurt you on purpose and bitch you fucking know it I am not your brother your father or mother I am your SON And it is time that you treat me like one. I did everything to gain your acceptance There's no exception! I only ever scream when I'm threatened so quit pretending! I'm NOT saying it's all your fault, but don't you ever think To put it all on me while you're back there bashing your head in As if I'm the one who caused all your problems and just ignored you! You were just as hostile and rude So I got nothing for you! If you're offended that I am speaking my mind You're surprising no one Go on. Blow up. It's mental torture Imagine being the son of a mother who tried to kill herself And openly blames you for it and says she's locked inside your cell And tells you she would rather have you homeless than be near her Imagine what it's like for you to hear that I am not the one who hurt you Why do I even have to tell you You're going through things I'm not used to But that don't mean I forgive you Cuz I am not the one who disowned you I'd kill myself before I did But living here is mental torture I don't want to be the one who kills you Whenever I disagree you think I'm tryina fight you You think I'm making you suffer every day to spite you I wanna say how I feel but it can't fit in this verse All the stress I can't handle it keeps on getting worse I'm done being the brunt of it all Always scared that you're calling the cops For doing something I never would do Its the same thing your dad did to you Why the f*ck would you picture me As this hellish imp who wants to hear you scream? We can't go five minutes without tryna Kill each other, do you know what that means? It means now I am the one who is holding the label the others had The evil one who is better off living somewhere else so we don't get mad The kind of person that I never thought I would live to see the day I'd become The one who makes his own mom want to fucking kill herself just by being around. There is no way I could bring myself to do anything that you said I would do The flashbacks make you lose yourself and make you forget who I am to you I understand that you're sick and I know the things that you said you never meant But the things you did still hurt and It'll take a LONG TIME to forgive what you've said Cuz I am not the one who hurt you all those years ago Why do I even have to tell you? You should already know You're going through things I'm not used to But that don't mean I forgive you Cuz I am not the one who disowned you I'd kill myself before I ever did that to you But living here is mental torture I don't want to be the one who kills you. I'm so done I'm so done I'm so numb I'm so numb And now I wonder, Were the tears and the pain worth it? I look over the years, it's so insane and so imperfect This year has been the worst in my life but I'm still searching I'm waiting to finally get that call from that sad person, "Excuse me sir, are you Mr. Andrew McDonald? There's no easy way to tell you, I'm sorry, it's your mom. She overdosed from Xanax, I know that you guys were close--" That's when I scream and tell him "NO I WAS NOT BUT I WISH I WAS!" DO YOU HAVE ANY CLUE HOW IT KILLS ME TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS?! YOU THINK THAT IF YOU DIED I WOULD LAUGH AND SAY WHAT A RIDDANCE?! F*CK YOU!!! I KNOW THAT I'M HARD TO DEAL WITH BUT THIS AIN'T NECESSARY! HEARING YOU SCREAM IN MY FACE IT SCARS ME, IT FUCKING SCARES ME! AND NOW IT'S GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I FREEZE AT LOUD NOISES AND RAISED VOICES AND CARS HONKING IT MAKES ME NAUSEOUS! THINKING ABOUT WHAT I'VE SAID IT MAKES ME FEEL SO WORTHLESS; MY CHOICES MADE ME A SCUMBAG AND NOW I STAND HOPELESS! Cuz I am not the one who hurt you All those years ago Why do I even have to tell you You should already know! You're going through things I'm not used to But that don't mean I forgive you Cuz I am not the one who disowned you I'd kill myself before I ever did that to you! But living here is mental torture I don't want to be the one who kills you I love you, Mom.
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