Suicide Trees

[1] I spent my whole life In love with despair Kept my lungs full With the breath of their Mute atmosphere ... I became what I hate. And thus shall I remain To give birth to a mighty assassin Armed with a weapon of words To defy the lies To never compromise No. Today, my name .... is pain. [2] I stood Beyond the world Whispering secret syllables In the eyeless dark Dancing wildly Round and round on the rotting ground Surrounded by the dead dusts of Hell ... This is how I delete myself & this is how I corrupt everyone else Obey Obey Betray Betray You are not unique. You do not need to think. Take it, take it! I will, I will ... I will. You succumb, so nicely. [like an insect staring back, like a dying dove] My love ..... [no] ..... my love. [song] So here we are again The sheets are stained & bloodied The animals scratch at my skin Here we are again My face is scraped & bloodied I've nothing left to give - I wasn't there, - I'm not involved, - I'm innocent, - it's not my fault. - I wasn't there, - I'm not involved, - I'm innocent, - it's not my fault. .. here in the suicide trees. .. here in the suicide trees. [[no. bloody, bloody, bloody, MURDER!]] AMONG THE EXCREMENT OF MY SINS!! It's not happening, it can't be happening, it's not happening. So here we are again In secret ceremonies Changing shape, amen. Here we are again Pretending not to notice The illness sneaking in. - I wasn't there, - I'm not involved, - I'm innocent, - it's not my fault. - I wasn't there, - I'm not involved, - I'm innocent, - it's not my fault. .. here in the suicide trees. .. here in the suicide trees. Toil & labor Hate your neighbor Faith in favor Obey! Toil & labor Hate your neighbor Faith in favor Obey! OBEY. OBEY. HERE, I DO AS I PLEASE! HERE IN THE SUICIDE TREES! HERE, I DO AS I PLEASE! HERE IN THE SUICIDE TREES!! OBEY!! HATE YOUR NEIGHBORS! HATE YOUR NEIGHBORS!! [the animals scratch at my skin] It's not happening, it's not happening.